I love watching Korean dramas. At first I watched because of the jitters it gives me and that hope and happy feeling of being in love. However, now that I choose what I watch, I was amazed that bountiful kdramas actually have depth in them…such depth that it makes me think and put them on my journal.
There is this one drama I watched wherein the male character had a difficult time moving on from his love that dragged the moving on process to 12 years…then this female character came and changed the course of the story. He loved again. TWELVE LONG YEARS OF PAIN AND HE LOVED AGAIN JUST LIKE THAT.
It makes me think a lot and ask God, “Is it really possible for someone to start anew and love a person without reference to the past? That time that the past becomes irrelevant when the right person comes along…that eventful moment…is that kind of healing and forgetting really possible?”
It was an impossible idea for me before. I mean to say, yes you could certainly love again, but the past you remember would make you love more carefully then eventually…would make you love less because you love in fear.
I started asking personally, “God, is it possible to revive my almost giving up heart?”
Then God spoke to my heart through Ezekiel 37, particularly verses 13-14,
And you shall know that I am the Lord, when I open your graves, and raise you from your graves, o my people. And I will put my spirit within you, and you shall live, and I will place you in your own land. Then you shall know that I am the Lord; I have spoken, and I will do it, declares the Lord.
Before I go on with this blog, I want you to know that the way God speaks to us is very personal. So while reading on, I want you to have an open mind and an open heart. I do not speak to represent someone, so this is about Our relationship. It actually it took me a lot of courage to share my heart for everyone to see, but it has been God’s nudges and whispers that finally moved my heart and mind to write in the hope that some people would be encouraged in reading this. This is the start, and I ask for the same in my succeeding blogs to be published.
So there you go. Since last year, God has been keen on reminding me that He will restore, He will rebuild. It was only now that I am slowly beginning to understand bits and pieces of the things He wants to restore and rebuild, and heal. He wants to start with my heart. He said to me that I will know that He really is my God who would bring back to life the hope that I would love again. He will raise to life the faith, hope, and love that I put into the grave because of the lies I fed myself for the past years.
And He will place me in my own safe place: maybe someone I would call my own without any insecurity; someone I wouldn’t be afraid to show my natural self to; someone who wouldn’t make me worry that knowing everything about me might make him turn his back on me; someone who isn’t afraid of all the baggage I have with me…someone I would someday call my home. He will bring me there, and He will do it.
And this is the bold declaration that I did. That same day I munched on the questions I had after I watched the drama, I prophesied to those dry bones. My three years is enough. I don’t need 12. I have Jesus for my healing. He will do it!
I know that after that day, the battle begins to start living on with that declaration I did. I am ready…not because of me, but God is preparing me to that restoration He promised that He would bring me. A month passed after I wrote that in my journal when He again reminded me while I attended the New Year’s Eve service. A month after I asked those questions and after my declaration, at that service, the pastor said, “If you are here today and you are wondering whether it is really possible to forget the past, God is telling you, it is possible.”
God is quick to remind me just before I start doubting if He will really do as He said. It was the life of Joseph: the same Joseph who was dumped by his brothers to the pit and the Joseph who rose to power because God’s hand was with him. He had unimaginable sufferings than I had. Being betrayed by your family would hurt a lot than being betrayed by a lover. Do you imagine how hard it was to forgive and bless your betrayers with what you gained after you suffered of their doing? He was accused, he was in prison yet these seemingly setbacks were God’s set up in restoring Joseph and making him fruitful in the midst of those suffering.
I could just imagine how happy Joseph might have been when his firstborn came that he named him Manasseh.
“For,” he said, ‘God has made me forget all my hardship and all my father’s house.” – Genesis 41:51
While I was lost in these thoughts, the pastor continued, “Declare today to your past…Manasseh!”
I was grateful. So that was it. It is possible because GOD WILL MAKE ME FORGET.
Six days from that on my way to my friend’s wedding, which was just yesterday, by the way, I saw the verses Isaiah 43:18-19 on the wall of a local church I passed by. It says,
Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
God has His ways of reminding me without me even asking Him. This is the God that I know; my good, good Father who knows my need before even asking Him. He is the God who is able to do more abundantly than I could ask or pray for. He will make me forget.
No, the Lord is already making me forget.
P.S. He could do the same for you too, if you let Him into your heart today. What are you asking God to heal you for? I would love to know and pray for and with you.